darn bugs

i'm sitting in our new house right now. i am occupying our lonely "dining room" table and chairs. (our house exists more as a confined open space; but if we had distinct rooms, this one would be called the dining room.) in front of me are the sliding glass doors that lead to our small backyard/patio. it really is a beautiful patio. the yard, at the moment, is infested with weeds. just a few moments ago i attempted to tell those weeds who was in charge. that lasted until the bugs detected my bare legs as feeding grounds. now i will simply admire the yard from inside.

i have to say, i was not aware of the handy-man factor chad has brought to the table. i am very proud of him, but i wonder if he knows what he has truly unleashed. seeing his home do-it-yourself skills makes my mind wander to a plethora of fun home decor ideas that would involve his newly discovered abilities. currently, i am waiting for him to get off work so we can partake in the mountain of tasks that await us.

sitting here alone, waiting on chad, reminds me of how much i want to spend the rest of my life with him. having this new home, planning and working toward making it a place that we will both, one day soon, dwell in together brings a whole new level of excitement for all that our shared life will bring. it really is an exhilarating feeling. as much joy as it brings me, it also brings an ache to my heart. an ache that can not wait for his arrival. an ache that misses him while he is gone. an ache that brings me to know that i don't want to miss any more of my life without him in it. an ache that lets me know chad is a blessing from God that makes me long for the day i will call myself his wife.